run and hide

Sepertinya denial dan dalam tahap fase yang dikatakan sebagai pasrah. Mendapati segala sesuatu yang dikira tadinya hanya sebentar ternyata lebih lama.

Diam dan menyimpan sendiri semuanya. Biarkan saja melihat kalian senang dari jauh.

Jangan kasihan karena saya tidak merasa sendiri disini. Saya sendiri mencoba mencoba membangun semua dari awal dan mengingat apa yang sempat hilang.

 

and it’s just feel good..at least for now

 

little things

I strolled myself to fashion bazaar at FX Sudirman and i’ve got these 2 handmade thingy
This one from ana. Thank God i got discount for this gorgeous yet unique handcraft necklace.

This what i like about this Fuji Yoko‘s handcrafts..unique,simple, and urban. Yes i got excitement to have this!

 

 

 

 

dear brother part 1

Hello dear brother..look what i’ve found…..isn’t he cute? please don’t be mad i like him. we think that we’re equally…brother come with us..he’s gonna show us way to home…but it takes very long trip..but don’t worry every long lost way we faced is gonna be fun..he’d promised me, brother and he won’t break it. Remember mom said that promise is a powerful things it shouldn’t be broke and vanish..

 

 

the meet up

I didn’t know her before until i stumbled to an interesting blog “letter me some news” about almost a year ago. She’s Mifta, a young awesome girl from Aceh. I remember it was just a random blogwalking then i left a “hi” on her shoutbox and she came visit my blog too and just left a common comment, i didn’t even think that we become this close. I started to read her blog from the old post and i think she’s got a very interesting writings. I like the way she express her feeling through words, when she was still in HS she went to New York for exchange, which is so great and how excited i am when i found out that she’s one of Aceh writer and she’s also a young voluntary english teacher (instead of being a psychology student in Universitas Syah Kuala, Aceh). She mentioned a lot about her students and their spirit to learn new things everyday. Well, impressive! it makes me wanna come to Aceh..and maybe i can come to her “school”. See what they do there…

you know,it was funny.. 2 people who hadn’t even met before, they planned to see each other in a place where they’re not belong to. I came from Jakarta to Bandung a few days ago caused by boredom and a bit of self-randomness. Mifta decided to spend ramadhan to avoid those “Islamic syariat Policy” in Aceh..hahaha well i’m joking actually she wanted to stay at her sister in Bandung during ramadhan ; ). Surprisingly she knows so many indie Musicians like Homogenic, The S.I.G.I.T, Frau, Mocca, and she even likes Hollywood Nobody! i asked her too for listening to Sarasvati..

Besides talked about music, daily life, romance, break-up, we were also talk about political issue. I guess she’s kinda person who can talk about everything, i can say she’s an open book 😛

I hope there will another catch up or maybe i can visit your house in Aceh…*amin* *God Willing*

yeah knowing you like find my soul sister…and i can’t believe that my soul sister is pretty far away : )

Dear Heart…

Apa kabar? sudah lama tidak berbicara padamu. Terakhir kali kapan ya? um aku juga lupa. Namun ijinkan aku untuk menyapamu pagi ini.

Hai Heart..

Aku lihat keadaanmu sudah membaik sekarang. Maaf ya heart karena aku luka dan lebam itu sekarang kembali membekas padamu. Tapi kali ini jahitan diatas luka itu lebih rapi dan anehnya masih terbaca pahatan namanya disitu, walau terlihat usang tapi dari situ dapat aku lihat dia dulu mengukirnya dengan indah. Terimakasih ya sudah membiarkan dia memahatnya disitu walau yang kita pernah dapatkan luka itu bersama-sama. Aku salut sama kamu..beberapa minggu terakhir kamu udah gak menangis lagi walau bayangan beberapa bulan yang lalu kerap menghantui kita beberapa kali.

Heart..

Kamu sudah sehat sekarang? dari penampilanmu pagi ini aku lihat kamu sudah lebih baik dari kemarin. Aku tak tahu kemana lagi kamu campakan perasaan-perasaan itu sedangkan memori-memori itu sering kali datang, aku tahu ini bukan salahmu memanggil namanya.

Heart…

Ayo kita berjalan lagi dan aku harap kau tidak memikul beban begitu banyak. Jangan melibatkan dirimu kedalam semua permasalahan yang terjadi…beristirahatlah sejenak, lakukan apa yang seharusnya memang sudah seharusnya kau lakukan, memompa darah keseluruh tubuh sesuai yang didalam buku biologi katakan 🙂

Sincerely,

Brain

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Heart! We will forget him

You and I, tonight

You may forget the warmth he gave

I will forget the light

-Emily Dickinson-

<3 Package

Yes this package goes to you my pal,

Happy birthday my dear friend Andrie Jarminto (AJ) 

You’re my favorite favorite favorite favorite male friend….

thank you for your kindness soul, your caring heart, and our crazy times that you’d given me

keep being a good bad boy

remember to stay happy and passionate

go out, have fun, and kick some ass!! yeah

Saya sayang anda, my manwh*re !!!! ;P

P.S: maaf paketnya jelek..ga sempet beli bungkus kado..jadi gambar asal2an aja..sori ancur sampe dalem-dalemnya..tapi bikinnya tetep pake cinta loooh ; )

 

 

quite dark

Kamu menyuruhku bangun dan berhenti bermimpi didalam gelap

Kamu mengajakku berbicara tentang kenyataan dan gelap selagi setia menemani hinggaku terang

kamu bilang

“tak usah takut akan gelap, disitu kita akan bebas dimana hanya kau dan aku yang tahu cara bertahan hidup disitu”